
Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Hello.
Please Listen.
When I'm with you,everything just feels so right.
And for the first time in a while,my smile isn't fake.
Thanks.
I love you.
There I said it.
Thanks. :)
Cos I rock.
10:54 AM

Monday, December 27, 2010

Hello.
I'm exhausted. How you people ever wondered this?
No one has the right to judge us because no one really knows what we have been through.They may have heard about our stories,but they never did once felt what we felt in our hearts. True?
I've been doing nothing much lately.I've figured out some stuff.
My new year's resolution?
I wanna be a better person. Being that person who is responsible and trustworthy. To think twice before I do something and also to be able to reflect upon myself better. To strive harder for what I want to achieve in the future. To be able to handle my problems at a more matured level. And lastly? To be a heroine. To be able to save myself when I'm drowning in the crowds of nonsensitive.
I reflect about myself for the past few days and found out that I was a selfish fool throughout this year.
I wanna be someone better.
I'll try. But no promises.
They say endings are only when you're happy.
If I end up not being satisfied and happy with myself,that means it's not the end yet.
I'll be a fighter. A hero.
Cos I rock.
5:21 PM

Thursday, December 23, 2010

I'd never thought that it'd be easy,cos we both so distant now.
And the walls are closing in on us and we're wondering how.
No one has a solid answer but just by walking in the dark,
You can see the look on my face and it tears me apart.
So you tell me now,what's my next step?
After you left,you left my world undone. I felt so out of place.
It was a nasty masterpiece,I had to pick up the pieces and climb from rock bottom.
But I'm not sure that I'm able to trust love no more.
The only reason is because,you left me once and you're gonna leave me again.
So now,I have to through all this piece of shit by my own.
Thanks to you.
Asswipe.
Cos I rock.
11:08 AM

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

fcuk yeah,Aaron Johnson. :)
Cos I rock.
2:07 PM

Monday, December 13, 2010

Hello.
My life's been like a cookie right now. Once you start eating it,it's sweet and enjoyable.
And once you're done with it,it's empty again.
Yeah,that's how it's like.
Okay nothing more to post,I guess.
P.S: I miss alot of people. I mean alot.
Especially my dance mates. :(
Cos I rock.
11:09 AM

Sunday, December 12, 2010

I have nothing to post about today. So to keep this pathetic blog alive. Here's something that I wrote
a few days ago.
Brown eyes. Those big brown eyes,I must say,is one of the things that I can't resist about you. I wouldn't deny
that I can't resist anything about you. I wish there was a way to tell you how I felt about you. I tried to sweep
aside the thoughts about you,but I simply couldn't. I wouldn't mind spending time with you even if it is only for a
minute,cos' it's you. I adore you cos you're a natural,there's no pretence when it comes to you.
Another one(malay):
Bagaimana seharusnya ku mengutuskan satu sikap yang bijaksana? Seandainya kau tidak mengaku hatimu teruntuk
ku? Dan bila sampai waktunya ku pergi lagi,ku perlu engkau memahami aku hanya ingin melunaskan sesuatu janji.
Bukan maksudku membuat kau terkeliru. Harap kau mengerti,hati ku selalu dengan mu.
Labels: reminiscing
Cos I rock.
7:38 PM

Saturday, December 11, 2010
fcuk yeah caramel apple.Hello.Hello.
Okay I'm here at my cousin's suite,helping out. Now resting. I'm bored.
So what are my plans ahead? Well,there's still hanging out at friend's crib and catching a flick
with dear Miss Pravina Prakas-ass and Miss Droopy Eyes. At the end of the month,my treat.
Hahaha,I'm craving for Pizza Hut! :(
Okay anywho,I wanna go out.
Tomorrow's Coach Sufri's performance,I'm not gonna go anyway,have some family matters.
Moving forward,nowadays I keep writing and writing,and come to think of it.
When I write,I'll tear up. I let out all my feeling about people. Especially about that person.
My life's pretty messed up.
Nevermind.
Okay bye.
Asswipe.
Cos I rock.
5:32 PM

Thursday, December 9, 2010


Hello.
A short one will do.
Sigh. How I miss dancing and hanging out with them. :(
Cos I rock.
10:18 AM

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Yes,yes I would. :)
Cos I rock.
8:54 PM

fcukyeah headphones.
Olo.
Okay let's see a short post will do.
We have three weeks before school starts,and I haven't even start studying for my exam.
Maybe I will start around next week.
Hmmm,tomorrow's Wednesday.
Going out with Rosnaida Rasid.
I guess.
I'm not in a good mood now.
K,bye.
What do you really want from me?
Really.
Cos I rock.
11:11 AM

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Hello.
Okay so I'm gonna update from Wednesday onwards.
Wednesday:
Woke up at around 1100hrs. When I woke up,I figured that I had nothing to do on that day itself. So after I freshened up. I looked in the fridge to see what is there to eat. I saw the perfect ingredients to make Aglio Olio Pasta. Lol. I cooked for about thirty minutes. Then I headed to Rosnaida's house to sent her a portion of it. Afterwards,I watched the television,played the computer,eat and sleep. That's all I ever do during these holidays.
Dammit.
Thursday:
Went to grandmum's new house which is located really opposite Limbang's shopping centre. Cousins and I helped around to move the boxes,organise and set up decors. It was fun. Hahah,lots of laugh,thanks to Ayinn and Abang Arul. They made my day. So on that day I had a dilemma on whether to stay there for a night. I asked my dad to see if he allows me to. In the end,he did cos y aunt wants me to stay there for a night. Lol. When the nightfalls,cousin followed home to pack my clothes. Hah,funny. I was like chiong-ing cos he told me hurry. Then I'm done,he said actually he doesn't mind if I take my time then I was -.-. Thanks ah. Hahah.
Friday:
I did the same thing. Hung out with cousins helped grandmum to move the furniture and such. Except,in the morning went to Limbang Macdonalds to have my breakfast with two of my baby cousins,Ayinn and aunty. Aunty ate halfway and went off to work. While the four of us continue to eat our breakfast. Baby cousins wanted to play the playground but sadly,it was wet. Sigh,pity.
Saturday:
Woke up went to the new house again but this time just for awhile because I wanted to check on my grandmother.
Went home,watched Supernatural with mum and sisters and the usual eat,watch television and sleep. Damn boring at home. :( . I wanna hang out but no one available. Sad-ded.
Sunday(today):
Had prata for breakfast and watched Supernatural again. Now,I'm in grandmum's house. Baby cousin sleeping beside me while my sister watching cartoons. Lol. I'm just sitting on the bed,updating this blog and also watching television. Hey,I can multi-task. Awesomezxs. Kay lame.
So now back to reality,I am simply sick and tired of people pushing me around telling me what to do each time.
What have you got against me? What have I ever done to you? Tell me.
Some people these days have no idea what does the word friends define as.
Friends are people who are always ready to lend you a listening ear,a helping hand or a shoulder to cry on,no matter what the occasion is.
Nowadays,it's hard to find them. In my life,there's only a handful of them. They understand me for who I am and won't change me. Sure friends fight but they're still friends no matter what.
Okay enough. It's getting too sentimental. :(
And to a friend out there,I really need you right now. Please.
I know you'll read this. I need you to be my listening ear right now.
Cos I rock.
12:47 PM